No Guts No Glory

At rehearsal tonight we were without a drummer. I decided to bail on the guitar and help out the team on drums. It was a lot of fun. But I am so paranoid about my hearing since the onset of tinnitus. I found myself hoping that I did not cause any damage to my ears by playing the drums.

There is no doubt that the tinnitus that I have been experiencing has come down significantly. It flairs a little bit every once in a while. For a few minutes here and there during the evening and when I first wake up in the morning. Some people afflicted with this terrible condition call it the T-Monster. Whatever I am experiencing is quite mild compared to some of the horror stories out there on the web. I really do not even notice it for most of the day and evening.

Most of my battle is pyschological. I think I will be okay with the passage of time. But I have certainly gone through a lot of stress with it. And there are days where the presence of tinnitus still causes me a lot of anxiety. I’m not sure why. I guess I will have to ask my therapist.